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ilovemyface
00:04
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STEMODIA
02:07
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gave u my blood
u gave me your demons
we weren’t in love
you left me there bleeding
thought u were a poor soul
but u lacked control
all this is getting old
memories starting to fold
feels like an eclipse
break a heart real quick
realized u ain’t shit
wonder if u still care
wonder if ur still there
i can’t live like this
i swear i need my fix
my head is split in two
this half is missing u
but i don’t wanna kneel no more
my heart is on the floor
submitting and quitting and loving a lie
aquitting and giving u all of my time
said i’m not enough always thinking 2 much
never giving a fuck if i’m loosing love
needa change myself
need better health
fuck wealth i’m not well
i gotta improve
ignore the rules
fuck the ruse
i’m breaking thru
i’m gonna rise
flames in my eyes
i think it’s time
take back what’s mine
oh my god
the second i feel like me
they tell me i should stop
u want me to change me
u want me to feel so blue
u want me to keep telling me that
i’m just like. u
i got my mind on the white noise
i’m finding comfort inside the void
eternal darkness i’m overjoyed
i heard ur tape and i did not enjoy
capping i’m capping like justin laboy
capping i’m capping like justin laboy
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PRONOUN!!!
02:30
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shut the heck your mouth
i got the perfume on boy i feel beautiful i do not wanna end up in a cubicle i wanna do with my life something musical they need to realize my dreams are not juvenile
i am not curious i am bifurious i hope u hearing this bitch i am serious i am an artist and ill go the hardest i know where my heart is so lets get it started
man i swear to god its getting hard as fuck to keep this facade
they think i got a disease they hate it when im me think im the antichrist wanna villanize
u better burn me u better hurry
or i might get human rights thats a bad sight everybody out here getting on my bad side everybody out here think that im the bad guy
cause im pretty as fuck and u pissed as fuck failed the audition for my gender roles suck a genital if u gonna be a bigot u gon make me break my limit u gon make me get explicit like giving u the digits i dont care if u dont get it get the fuck up out my mentions
yall so ignorant
u the ony mfs not gettin it
always crying bout free speech and shit
when i open my mouth u getting pissed
i dont really like u
i dont wanna fight u
i dont wanna try 2
explain what i might do
trapped inside my mind
only feel alive in the dark of the night
i just need some time to reset my life cause its me i dont like so i stay out of sight
i was up at late nights always having late fights tryna do what was right tryna fuckin see the light
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OFFICER J
03:02
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this clockwork like hugo
don’t give a fuck where u go
was never good at judo
but now i’ve hit a new low
throw it down
cause the beat just pounds
and i hear the sounds
when i hit the ground
e gadd
bitches on some fads
hadda ghost my ass
cause i wear that mask
fuck the fame
2 weird 4 the game
tryna get acclaim
or an end to the pain
but i’m sick of barley dropping
i’m sick of getting boxed in
i’m sick of no profit
i’m sick of being off it
i’m done
feels like most of my freindships are fake shit
makeshift
leave me all alone when the weight hits
but is it my fault
got no1 2 consult
love i try to construct keeps just getting brushed off
they said i’m saying way way too much
but we always loose touch hell i been thru such
but it still hurts
sick of putting effort in this
for ppl who don’t give shits
if i’m even living
i just needa focus on myself
if i get a boy/girlfreind would the pain even end
i just needa focus on myself
take my pills
write my feels
say what’s real i don’t wanna go and kneel
i fucking hate this so anxious yet nameless and faceless
whenever i try to speak
feeling hella fucking week
why do they keep leaving me
why they never see me bleed
i dont think that i can breathe
when im begging on my knees
man i’d rather pray then be down
over an 8 ball
my fame calls
i gotta rap be famous
shit i might play ball
just so im out of reach when
motherfucking hate calls
they got my mans locked up
yo shit that’s more than 8 bars
and they say they never freeing
him her or my mime
which is why i always seem
so fucking down a stide
i say i’m a hustle n****
i could never stay inside
i’d rather stay with real ppl
who gon stay right by my side
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mindfullness
00:42
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GRAVEPILLED
02:49
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rage up in my pocket
they told me i should stop it
i didn’t have the option
was always tripping off it
got bad shit on my conscience
this shit make u unconscious
said it sound like nonse
but then they go and bump it
said she’d date me but i like boys
too bi
i don’t fuck with all of that noise
goodbye
i ain’t a fence sitter bitch i break it down
i ain’t sonic bruh i don’t run around
catch me in your town u can’t miss me
either look depressed or so pretty
and these people say they dont get me
i dont care bitch u aint with me
i said rage up in my pocket
my checks are fat robotnik
you know u cannot stop it
there is no other option
bitch i’m gravepilled
better call the coroner
i stay ill
rappers going missing in the day still
they want me to stay still?
bitch i won’t lie in my grave no no
i’m staying awake
dont give a fuck what u say cause i am dead anyway
hey
i know u tryna stop me all dressed up like a clown
pagliacci
ouu
and you mad as fuck so u harass on the internet
but its okay ur anonymous till someone leaks ur address
keep doing what you doing
you gon end up truant
stay safe calm down
no need to start shooting
goddamn
i rose up
from out the grave i rose
my throat cut
the ace of spades all folds
i rose up
from out the grave i rose
i like being in a state
where i can’t feel my face
i been getting 2 a place
where i can’t take this pain
i been going down a road
rage is coursing through my veins
i hate feeling this way
feel like im going insane
i’m a train
off the tracks
boy i think i’ve fucking lost it
run away
come run my fade
better run away
don’t overthink
in a straight jacket
i just made it out of alcatraz
don’t give me guns or no drugs
i’ll go off and spazz
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7. |
skinandwater
04:59
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i hate my fucking body
looking in the mirror always feel so oddly
i feel a disconnect when humans talking
headphones music and i start walking
just thinking to myself
everytime i understand it
back to where i couldn’t grasp it
what’s a moth to a flame
what’s a card to a game
what’s a heart to a brain
what if i go insane
why am i in pain
with no killers
lately every day just feels like filler
i don’t wanna talk to u
it’s getting way too hard 2 prove
that i am who i say i am
i didnt wanna say it man
im scared of getting hate crimed
so i stay inside
holding on the moment tryna keep going
why do these thigh highs only go up to my knees
why are these chokers so tight i cannot breathe
i just wanna be pretty
i just wanna be cute
i wanna be in a dress
they want me in a suit
i feel so away from home
even when i’m there i wanna go
never had no hand to hold
stuck in the moment tryna keep going
bitches do not get it
bitches never with it
saying they support you but they never listen
i say he/she/they
they hear a third of what i say
never giving me a break i give they take
it ain’t politics if our lives are at stake
ain’t no disagreement when rights go away
terrified that they gonna wipe us away
hard to be myself when i know it ain’t safe
they want me dead on the street
they want me stroke in the heat
bitch i do not feel safe on my own 2 feet
bitch stop assuming my gender
stop assuming my gender
made that shit a meme and turn my pain into your pleasure
then you fuel ur agenda making up trans trenders
calling me a perv what bout those fucking nudes u sent her
she ain’t ask for that shit
when you gonna get it
i just need to let it breathe
i need someone to tell me that it’s gonna be okay
i make art hope it makes me feel a lil better
i’ll restart i ain’t ever wanna upset ya
i depart quest hoping i could find treasure
i need heart cause im stuck in the fuckin desert
i’m a little bit better now but
this place is a little loud could
we please just go somewhere else
can we just talk alone by ourselves
things get a little better then they get worse
but that’s life up and downs that’s the damn curse
i’ve been tryna learn to put myself first
tryna give me love that i deserve
so that
when i look in the mirror
i see me
it’ll happen
eventually
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8. |
beautiful dysphoria
03:32
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